Baby Vampire Made Me

It doesn't matter if it's wrong or if it's right,
you won't remember after I bite.

You've got blood, baby friend of mine,
you've got blood and it tastes like lye.

I've got a baby vampire in me,
nobody knows, nobody knows.
I saw you put it in me like a seed
that was as big as a stone.

And all I can do is watch it grow
and it comes and it goes.
It comes and it goes
and it's turning me into someone I don't know.

You've got a skull, baby, you've got a spine.
After I'm done with you I'll spit them out like rinds.

I got a baby vampire in me,
it just might eat me before it eats you.
I saw you put it in me like a seed.
Then it grew.

It feels funny but I want you to see
that's good for you isn't always good for me.
I'm gonna kill it, or hide underground,
it's after me like a hound.

Baby, baby, so beautiful.
Little baby, I feel clean,
There's still life after the machine.

Little baby, I feel fresh,
You can't live life if you're living death.

- mary timony

HELIUM: Pirate Prude
Stills: León Klimovsky's La Noche de Walpurgis, 1970

Covenant

Confront Me, Unholy Ones
Bastard Saints, Scorn of the Earth
I Summon Thee, now Poison Me
Death under Will, Burn in My Soul

Exalt Me, Enemies of the Lamb
Intrude- We are of One
Under Will, I walk the Path of Sin
With Your Spells I Die again

Raise me from Mortal
My Will, Be Your Will
My Words, Speak Your Words
Your Pains, Raise Me to Bliss

What of this Anger now
Received to Lance Your Enemy
I feel the Energy
The Poison moves in Me
I spill Blood

Scorn of the Earth, I Witness
In Rapture I'm Born Again
Scorn of the Light, I bear Scorn
In Rapture I'm Reborn

MORBID ANGEL: COVENANT

I'm Not Here

"Blindfold me so I can live my life.....
I'm, I'm not here.
Oh, help me, help me.
I'm not here."

Super Heroines: Cry For Help

Return to the Eve

"Take my soul away into the dark,
Dreaming a thousand morbid dreams.
No tomorrow when the wind caress my mind,
Could I ever return, it would be my doom."

Celtic Frost: Morbid Tales

painting: "The Crucifixion of Saint Julia" by Hieronymus Bosch
(oil on wood panel, date unknown)

Struck With Terror

Early concert by GLOOM. Performed and recorded on April 29th, '91 at 難波Bears (Namba Bears), a famous underground club in downtown Osaka City. The place is tiny. This record makes me happy.

GLOOM：濁流玉砕雑核音91

USE IT RIGHT OR DON'T FEEL IT

THE ONLY REAL THING IS MISERY. SUBMISSION MEANS YOU GET MURDERED. YOU GET REVENGE WHEN YOU WAIT FOR IT. FRUSTRATED MEANS YOU'RE INSANE. HE'S A DEAD THING UNDER THE SHEET. CAUSING PAIN. SEX TURNS IMPOTENCE INTO DECAY. UNCONSCIOUS REPRESSION DEGRADES THE REAL THING. YOU CAN'T KILL A CRIMINAL NEED. WHEN YOU ARE POLLUTED WITH FEAR YOU NEED COMFORT. YOU CAN'T KILL WHAT YOU DON'T SEE. YOU CAN'T THINK WHAT YOU DON'T OWN. YOU CAN'T RUB WHAT YOU DON'T RECOGNIZE. YOU DON'T GET WHAT YOU REALLY DESERVE. YOU CAN'T FIGHT IF YOU DON'T FEEL IT. OBEDIENCE PAYS IF YOU USE IT RIGHT. YOU DEGRADE YOURSELF WHEN YOU HIDE YOUR FEAR. WHEN YOU EAT YOUR PAIN YOU KEEP YOU NERVE. USE IT RIGHT. OR DON'T FEEL IT. USE IT RIGHT OR DON'T FEEL IT.

- m. gira

SWANS: COP

The Circle and The Cross

The Great Day of His Wrath has Come,
And Who will be able to Stand?
Thus I saw The Horse in a Vision,
Out of His mouth issued Fire and Brimstone,
And I beheld and heard an Angel Singing,
For the Great Day of His Wrath has Come.
Cast Their Crowns before the Throne,
And unto You I say, "You are Worthy,"
And I will Kill the Child with Death,
And I will Give Them the Morning Star.
Dost Thou not Judge and Avenge Us in Blood?
A Crown of Glory that not Fadeth Away.
For Thy Pleasure They are and were Created,
Insight like unto an Emerald.
And I heard a Voice,
A Voice of Great Thunder,
And I heard Pinions of Fire,
And there appeared a Great Wonder in Heaven,
Which is a Wonder that Deceiveth the Whole World,
An Image of Peace that shall Smite the Earth
with all Forms of Plague.
Indestinant Absence,
King of Kings, Lord of Lords.
There shall be no more Pain, nor Sorrow, nor Death,
For these Former Things have Passed Away,
May Your Circle be Unwoven,
Bye and bye Lord,
Bye and bye.

- rozz williams

SHADOW PROJECT: Dreams For The Dying
Stills from Ingmar Bergman's Det sjunde inseglet ("The Seventh Seal", 1957)

飴色の背中に悲しみのくきがのびる

「月光の白き林で
木の根掘れば蝉の蛹のいくつも出てきし
ああ

それはあなたを思い過ぎて変わり果てた私の姿
月光も凍てつく森で
樹液すする私は虫の女」

戸川純：『玉姫様』

This is Togawa Jun's 1984 debut solo album, Tamahimesama ("Jewel Princess").
This is the voice of Heaven. This is the voice of the Divine.

なんていいかげんな私なんだ

御前ノ部屋ニ忍ビ込ンデ・・・

get down on your knees and cry alone.....

"The sex in your soul will damn you to hell

Damn you to hell
I will be there
When he calls my number I will be there
Let the light come in
Damn you to hell
Now save your soul
Damn you to hell
Now save your soul
Damn you to hell
Save your soul"

SWANS: Live at the Paradiso, Amsterdam, 1988-
Part 1 and Part 2

painting: "Saint Agnes" by Lis Wright-Ivec
(egg tempera with gold leaf on wood panel)

aw fuck. i wish i could go.....

suicide ocean

".....I could almost cry like tears of blood

and slowly it evaporates
without a trace without a scar
sometimes too blue
the moment passes
overhead, so undetected
without default, with no perfection

I could close my eyes and sleep forever
locked inside this secret silence
whisper deep inside my head
slow motion sick
until tomorrow
rewind, erase and nothing remains
the way that nothing ever does
every face is familiar in the dark....."

LYDIA LUNCH: 13.13

美術／art: 丸尾末広／Maruo Suehiro

when clocks have run down

"that's when my love is in your hands,
take us back a thousand years,
when clocks have run down,
when walls of tears will follow,
smell of death is close."

photo: D. Gorton, "Mississippi State Mental Hospital, Whitfield, MS," 1970

MIGHTY SPHINCTER: In the Kingdom of Heaven

And a Wolf Shall Devour the Sun

"Each day Sun and Moon were pursued by the enormous wolves Skoll, Hati, and Managarm. Kept by Angur-boda, fed on the bone marrow of murders and adulterers, of which there was no end, they grew stronger and stronger. Each day they got closer to Sol (Sun) and Mani (Moon) until one day their jaws closed around them and the life was crushed out of them. Their blood dripped from the wolves' jaws and poured down on the earth."

- Barry Holstun Lopez, Of Wolves and Men, pp. 275-276.
Artwork: "The Wolves Pursuing Sol and Mani" by J. C. Dollman, 1909.

Forgotten Woods: As the Wolves Gather

Garbage in honey

A long time ago, I found a used record. It was in a bin full of warped, neglected vinyl. I bought the record and took it home. The music carved a gash. It stayed there and didn't want to leave. Here it is.

THE BIRTHDAY PARTY: It's Still Living.....

Buried By Time And Dust

Visions of that no morning's light ever will come.
I'm to old now.
The dark is so near, will I ever reach the land beyond?
This is where we go when we have to die.
I've been old since the birth of time.
Time buried me in earth.
Centuries ago, I tasted blood.
Buried by time and dust.
Many years has pasted since the funeral.
Missing the blood of human throats.
So many years, ages ago.
I must await, feel my bodies stench.
Wanderings out of space.
Wandering out of time.
A world out of light, death at the end.
Only silence can be heard, silence of people's tears.
No one knows my grave.
Buried by time and dust.

- dead
MAYHEM: Live in Leipzig (11/26/90)

しおれたる華

morpheus laughing

an extreme solution no fossil fuel mimicking exhaust rattles troublesome a madman's vast direct iron grooved world primary state average distance closer to the sun draws a comet nearer to a complex destruction a specter so violent in its views lies impervious altitude has a tendency under pressure to reveal its identity gaping hole bright star penetration blindfold reliance wrinkles in the cloth of time unity among such a poor existence in this third world resistance should be used civil disobedience central pivot revolving heated combustion back to the origin of it all all of it no unwarranted fear courage shown the white line on the ball we live on deserted streets hallucinated the bursted species abnormal conditions deep sentiment for repulsive power nations knows immense populace ingenuity and progress never progressed out of the sun all experiments prove not need the established greed and pain inflicted on the animal model still nothing no cure the ravaged instinct silent waking to a chemical perversion wartime underground imperfect plotting grows the seeds of time

- n. ogre

SKINNY PUPPY: live at Latin Quarter, Detroit, MI, 11/09/90

「生きれぬままで死ねず、死ねぬままで生けず、血は沸騰を止めず・・・」

「月ハ衛生デハ無イ。
アレハ空二開イタ穴ダ。
向コウノ世界ノ
光ガ穴カラ
漏レテイルカラ
光ッテ見エルノダ。」

− 丸尾末広、『笑う吸血鬼』

あざらし：吾ガ分裂ノ蟲裂ク時